i've been thinking for few days.. what i want..
patching back or not..

就当我在想起的时候，我的心了闷闷的。。很想接受但是我很怕。我怕我又被伤害，我不是说我没信心只是感情。。
虽然他骗我不少，伤了我也不少，但是他对我也是真心的。他会为我哭，逗我笑。宝贝，谢谢你。给我机会。。
你知道吗，为了你，我哭了不少，就像你说的，我是爱哭的宝宝。都不知道是谁害得哦！天天想你，又怕打扰你。。

现在的你不像以前那样了。反而会担心我，我很开心。和你说我们以前在一起的事，有些话我不敢说因为怕你骂我。但现在不同咯~我想说什么我就说，连什么醋我都吃！管你的！以前我笨笨的一次又一次的迁就你，现在我们俩可以放心的交往吧！

宝贝我可要先说。。如果哪个老醋在找你 我可不饶你！

宝贝我爱你 对不起 有些事我不能就这样停止 可是我可以发誓我是真真真真的爱你。。

I LOVE YOU BABY NCH <3

it's been 6 month..
time passed really fast...
hmm.. where should i start from?? well, haha i guess i just start it with a story =)


Now, here is it

there's a girl, she's a flirter and innocent. She's confused.. What is LOVE? no matter how she flirt.. in the end.. the results she didnt get the feeling of love..
So oneday, this guy happen to sms her.. She thought.. oh is just a friend.. mayb i should flirt over him.. so sooner or later... he tried to meet her up.. but she cant.. show up herself.. cause she too bust with her own things.

and Finally, she show up.. and met the guy..

She thought... well, i am not nice lookin girl and fat.. i dont think that guy really fall in love with me.. we are just fooling and playin around. mayb the next day he wont even wan to contact or meet me.. And so, after a date with this guy, she was surprise and shock... this is because it's her FIRST time a guy hold her hand... care her... look after her.. and wad she think is.. nah.. is fake fake fake~

after the day, she bck home.. she felt happy yet scared.. she figured that the guy wont want to meet her up the next day.. but NOt.. the guy met her up the other day and he bck to camp.. and yeah... their LOVE STORY begins..

after few weeks~

she love him
he love her

but things dosent goes so well...
things happen by then...

Main problem - Lost trust... Ex coming bck... Lie... Family


after they 've been through these...

the girl dont know what to do
her friends told her just break it off.. he dosent suitable for u..
even her bf told her that he is not a good boyfriend...
but

do they know her feelings?
the boy does.. this is why she love him
but the boy know his attitude well.. he wants to keep the girl and dun wan let the girl cry cause of Him.. He tried his best...
The girl felt it somehow..but she afraid.. she scare...

" i really dont know what to do.. i dont feel like breaking up.. i dont wan to hurt him.. i dont wan to hurt myself.. i Dont want.. i want a happy life.. i wan everybody trust me.. i wan he live with me.. i dont wan be a jealous queen.. i wan more attenttion.. and i know that.. I LOVE HIM!! i cant without him.."



this is it..

baby... what should i do? i love u.. but there;s smth missing.. i dont know wad is it.. and i dont wan to know.. i afraid to love other guys.. i'm sorry..i love you.. dont leave me..

10/06/09
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January we broke up..

and yet.. i still miss u as usual..
baby, do u know how much i over come these fears? i have cried cried cried whole nite.. There's nobody but a picture of you.. everynite before go to bed.. i cant sleep.. i will keep think of u..and there's goes my tears.. Every night.. every Day.. Every moment when i looking at your picture..

Till the day.. u cant get rid of me and said.."leave me alone.. dont ever call or sms me anymore.. i dont wan you.. and.. i hat..e.. you..." poof...

day by day... i waiting for ur call.. day by day i waiting for ur sms..

until the day.. u call or sms say u miss me.. i was so happy. i cant even think of anything but u..
baby.. isn't that too late? day by day.. by looking at your picture i trying to forget you.. you one call... can waste out my whole effort to forget u do u noe tat?

i've been a brave girl when u not around me.. i try not to scare insects.. i try to live alone. when i fall... i try to get up. and there's a guy willing to help me through this..
baby, do you know tat? now you come back to me . said wan patch back.. cause u miss me.. is it SHE dun wan to trust you and u come bck to me? baby.. u really waste all the effort.. im trying not to be a cry baby.. i try to get more and more frens.. even.. dun care wad is a shame in a game.. talking bullshit things and nonsense.. baby.. tat's really not like me.. i dont like it..i really miss u..

Friday.
We met up and hugged each other...
we still miss and love each other yet.. there's smth.. blocking between us.. Problem is not with you but me.. you said i've been fall for another guy.. but i tell u he is not.. for me.. he is just a mapler fren.. which help me all along.. i do really appreciate with him..

Saturday.
We hUg.. we Cried.. cause we still love each other.. but we cant be tgt anymore..
there's no trust between us.. im sorry.. baby im really sorry..




all i can sae is.. i still love you..baby.. decision is up to u.. im the one who hurt you the most and im sorry..

-Baby i love You-

3/20/10

i've been thinking for few days.. what i want..
patching back or not..

就当我在想起的时候，我的心了闷闷的。。很想接受但是我很怕。我怕我又被伤害，我不是说我没信心只是感情。。
虽然他骗我不少，伤了我也不少，但是他对我也是真心的。他会为我哭，逗我笑。宝贝，谢谢你。给我机会。。
你知道吗，为了你，我哭了不少，就像你说的，我是爱哭的宝宝。都不知道是谁害得哦！天天想你，又怕打扰你。。

现在的你不像以前那样了。反而会担心我，我很开心。和你说我们以前在一起的事，有些话我不敢说因为怕你骂我。但现在不同咯~我想说什么我就说，连什么醋我都吃！管你的！以前我笨笨的一次又一次的迁就你，现在我们俩可以放心的交往吧！

宝贝我可要先说。。如果哪个老醋在找你 我可不饶你！

宝贝我爱你 对不起 有些事我不能就这样停止 可是我可以发誓我是真真真真的爱你。。

I LOVE YOU BABY NCH <3

it's been 6 month..
time passed really fast...
hmm.. where should i start from?? well, haha i guess i just start it with a story =)


Now, here is it

there's a girl, she's a flirter and innocent. She's confused.. What is LOVE? no matter how she flirt.. in the end.. the results she didnt get the feeling of love..
So oneday, this guy happen to sms her.. She thought.. oh is just a friend.. mayb i should flirt over him.. so sooner or later... he tried to meet her up.. but she cant.. show up herself.. cause she too bust with her own things.

and Finally, she show up.. and met the guy..

She thought... well, i am not nice lookin girl and fat.. i dont think that guy really fall in love with me.. we are just fooling and playin around. mayb the next day he wont even wan to contact or meet me.. And so, after a date with this guy, she was surprise and shock... this is because it's her FIRST time a guy hold her hand... care her... look after her.. and wad she think is.. nah.. is fake fake fake~

after the day, she bck home.. she felt happy yet scared.. she figured that the guy wont want to meet her up the next day.. but NOt.. the guy met her up the other day and he bck to camp.. and yeah... their LOVE STORY begins..

after few weeks~

she love him
he love her

but things dosent goes so well...
things happen by then...

Main problem - Lost trust... Ex coming bck... Lie... Family


after they 've been through these...

the girl dont know what to do
her friends told her just break it off.. he dosent suitable for u..
even her bf told her that he is not a good boyfriend...
but

do they know her feelings?
the boy does.. this is why she love him
but the boy know his attitude well.. he wants to keep the girl and dun wan let the girl cry cause of Him.. He tried his best...
The girl felt it somehow..but she afraid.. she scare...

" i really dont know what to do.. i dont feel like breaking up.. i dont wan to hurt him.. i dont wan to hurt myself.. i Dont want.. i want a happy life.. i wan everybody trust me.. i wan he live with me.. i dont wan be a jealous queen.. i wan more attenttion.. and i know that.. I LOVE HIM!! i cant without him.."



this is it..

baby... what should i do? i love u.. but there;s smth missing.. i dont know wad is it.. and i dont wan to know.. i afraid to love other guys.. i'm sorry..i love you.. dont leave me..

10/06/09
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------


January we broke up..

and yet.. i still miss u as usual..
baby, do u know how much i over come these fears? i have cried cried cried whole nite.. There's nobody but a picture of you.. everynite before go to bed.. i cant sleep.. i will keep think of u..and there's goes my tears.. Every night.. every Day.. Every moment when i looking at your picture..

Till the day.. u cant get rid of me and said.."leave me alone.. dont ever call or sms me anymore.. i dont wan you.. and.. i hat..e.. you..." poof...

day by day... i waiting for ur call.. day by day i waiting for ur sms..

until the day.. u call or sms say u miss me.. i was so happy. i cant even think of anything but u..
baby.. isn't that too late? day by day.. by looking at your picture i trying to forget you.. you one call... can waste out my whole effort to forget u do u noe tat?

i've been a brave girl when u not around me.. i try not to scare insects.. i try to live alone. when i fall... i try to get up. and there's a guy willing to help me through this..
baby, do you know tat? now you come back to me . said wan patch back.. cause u miss me.. is it SHE dun wan to trust you and u come bck to me? baby.. u really waste all the effort.. im trying not to be a cry baby.. i try to get more and more frens.. even.. dun care wad is a shame in a game.. talking bullshit things and nonsense.. baby.. tat's really not like me.. i dont like it..i really miss u..

Friday.
We met up and hugged each other...
we still miss and love each other yet.. there's smth.. blocking between us.. Problem is not with you but me.. you said i've been fall for another guy.. but i tell u he is not.. for me.. he is just a mapler fren.. which help me all along.. i do really appreciate with him..

Saturday.
We hUg.. we Cried.. cause we still love each other.. but we cant be tgt anymore..
there's no trust between us.. im sorry.. baby im really sorry..




all i can sae is.. i still love you..baby.. decision is up to u.. im the one who hurt you the most and im sorry..

-Baby i love You-

3/20/10